Let the Paranoia Begin

Thank you all so much for the congratulations, and the kind words. You are all so sweet!! I decided to go ahead with the antibiotics (Macrobid) since several people told me their ob's gave them the same thing. The idea of an untreated infection was worse than the antibiotics. I think the thing was, the primary care dr was scared of my history, and since she isn't an ob, she was scared to tell me to do anything, either way.

I called the AFB's ob clinic yesterday. Of course, they have no appointments open on their calendar, but they get the new calendar for the month on June 19th, so I am supposed to call back then. I told the receptionist that I am high risk, and he gave me the nurse's line number just in case. At least I have SOMETHING.

I hate knowing I am pg this early. I am not even *4* weeks already, so that is that much more time to worry. I feel so ridiculous saying I am pg, and af isn't even late yet. I know it's early for symptoms, but I swear I am exhausted (but I have a 2 year old, so that could very easily be why) and my boobs are INSANELY sore. I can only hope that that's a good sign, but this just really doesn't seem real. Part of me wants to run to the bathroom and POAS, and part of me is terrified to, for fear of seeing a BFN. I keep thinking that maybe, just maybe, that wasn't really MY positive test. Maybe they mixed it up. (I know that's not the case. What are the chances of them mixing up lab results AND urinalysis?) This is all just so freaking unreal.