Monday, May 23, 2005

Welcome to My Life

Ever heard this song? I have about a million times, but never really paid attention to what they were saying. I heard it again today while I was on my way to the park and it REALLY hit me. WOW. Here are the lyrics.

Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Which brings me to how the day went. I'm a chickenshit. I found the park pretty easily. Finding the playground was a little harder, but I did manage to find it too. I basically had no description of these women to help me find them, and there was of course more then one group of moms. Figures right??? So basically I let Evan play, and with him being so little, I stayed with him and helped him. The one group of women left but there was still a groupd by the picnic area, and I wasn't sure, but I thought that was them, but I just could NOT go over there. So by the time one of the moms came to help her daughter on the slide and she called her by a name I recognized, I had lost ALL nerve to say "Hi are you J?" So I never said a thing to any of them. Another mom came up though and she also had a 14 month old son so we ended up talking and actually we had a TON in common, but I didn't get HER number. Oh well, the playgroup meets again almost every day. If it isn't too cool I plan on meeting them at the beach on Wednesday. We shall see.

Keeping a friend in my prayers tonite, she will be induced tomorrow night with her first baby. Hoping that baby makes an appearance before it's daddy leaves for deployment. SAFE AND SOUND AND LIVING!!!!!!!!!! (Caleb made it before daddy left for deployment too......)

1 Comments:

At 9:05 PM, Blogger Jill said...

Baby steps...you talked to some people and that is fantastic.

It is bloody hard to do that you know? When you feel so different that you are sure everyone must be able to tell from a mile off - you still did it!

There will be lots of time and opportunities!

 

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