Another Broken Heart
In case anyone is still reading this, please keep Molly's/ family in your prayers.
Our first child was stillborn due to a cord accident while I was in the early stages of labor in January of 2003. We went on to have another baby boy in March of 2004, and a baby girl in Febuary of 2007. This is my life raising my children that are here while I am missing the one that should be.
In case anyone is still reading this, please keep Molly's/ family in your prayers.
Both kids have their first ever ear infections. Fun stuff. Oh and we only found this out after sitting in Urgent Care for 6 hours on Monday. I have yet to figure out what the point of having a pediatrician is if you can't get your kids in to see them when they are sick. So now both kids are on antibiotics, and seem to be feeling a bit better. Of course it seems like I picked up something in that nasty UC waiting room, because now I am fighting getting sick. Good times.
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You would be 5 years old today. Five. Years. Old. It's absolutely unimaginable. I try to think of what you might be like, and I can't. I didn't get to see your eyes. I didn't get to see your smile, or hear your cry. You feel so far away at this point. Not a day has gone by where I havne't thought of you. My heart was shattered the day you left, and has never completely healed. My arms still ache to hold you.
It never changes. I still miss him. I still ache to have him here. I will smile, and I will be genuinely happy while I take Evan (and Lauren since dh is working nights) out tonite, but it's all bittersweet. On the way to get the candy bowl out of my van, there was a penny on the ground. Thank you Caleb, I needed that.