Random Thoughts

I have tried to post a few times, but we all know how hard Blogger can make that. Since I am lucky to post even one time, I guess I will just kind of throw it all in here.

Thursday, I got to meet Kate in person. I have known her now through another group for close to 3 and a half years. We have talked to each other close to every night on yahoo, but we live so far from each other, we never actually got to meet. Her conference brought her a few hours from me, and she decided to take some of her spare time, and come spend a night at my house. I am SO glad she did. I always knew she was an incredibly sweet person just by talking to her, and of course the occasional package in the mail that proves she is constantly thinking of Caleb too. And Evan LOVED her. (Kate, we went out to eat last night, and he kept asking if we were going to see M. lol) I realy wish they lived closer so Evan and Chloe could play together. I think they would have an awesome time.

Friday we were supposed to go to the pumpkin patch since we had run out of time to go, but by noon it was raining. Figures. So we ended up taking Evan, and our friend J. and her dd to the mall and letting them play in the play area. Then we came home and I made spaghetti and meatballs.

With the 2 days of being busy almost nonstop, that fear started creeping in. That constant nagging question of when I felt the last movement from the baby. I kept THINKING I remembered movement, but would then wonder if it really WAS movement, or if I was just imagining things. I know it's hard to explain (unless you have been there). Thank God for the doppler. I snuck upstairs and listened real quick, just to make sure. All is ok for now. I was doing so well with the fear, but I guess I am not anymore. Last night the baby seemed to move non-stop, so that was a little of a relief.

I went and ran some errands with J yesterday, and while we were out, we stopped by a couple of baby sections. I had outfits in my hand more than once, but ended up putting them down before we left the store. I just can't bring myself to buy anything. I had an easier time buying for Evan (I just couldn't take the tags off of things). I just can't do it this time though. I keep saying once I have the u/s next week, then MAYBE it will be easier, but honestly, I doubt it. I know I NEED to buy some of the stuff we need in advance because if not, we will end up spending the money all at once, and we cant afford to do that. It's just actually DOING it that is the problem.

Thank God for holiday distractions. (which of course bring up all kinds of OTHER issues.....)

I thought I would come and give a little update since it seems that I still have at least one reader out there. I kind of thought that everyone had given up on me by now. I haven't really posted because honestly, there just isn't anything to post about. I've managed to stay somewhat sane lately as far as the pregnancy goes, but I think alot of that has to do with the daily use of the doppler (nope, I didn't send it back like I said I was going to). I had to reschedule my next dr appointment because dh had to work on Oct 30 (the original date). When I called I found out that that was the only day that week that my dr would be there. Since HE was the one that said he would do a quickie u/s at my next appointment, I really had no choice but to change it to the following week. So my next appointment ended up being Nov. 6 (*5* weeks after my last appointment.) I really have the feeling that we still aren't going to be able to find out the gender, but it's definately worth a shot. And of course it's not like I am going to turn down another u/s!!

So see, there really isn't much to say. I think I like it that way!

Halfway Home

That's how my dr put it when we saw him yesterday. We are halfway home. I wanted to say "look man, we are MORE than halfway there, because you WILL induce me". I didn't though.

We had our anatomy u/s yesterday and everything looked perfect. The baby was completely uncooperative though, and it took the tech forever to be able to get her measurements. She couldn't get a shot of the baby's face because of both hands being in the way. Then she couldn't get the stomache because the baby kept moving. And then she couldn't find the bladder because it was EMPTY. She showed me where the cord inserted, and I totally ignored everything else that was said about the cord. Honestly, I don't want to hear about it because it scares the shit out of me. She tried to get a gender shot for us. This baby was NOT letting that happen. Seriously, I have ANOTHER stubborn one on my hands. Legs squeezed together at the thighs, and crossed at the ankels. She shook my belly over and over, and even had me sit up, and then lay back down, and the baby would squirm around (I could feel it moving the entire time) but kept the legs closed tight. She said if she HAD to guess, she would say girl, but she wouldn't say it for me because of my history. I told her this was the same thing BOTH of my boys did to me, and we were told they were both girls, and then at an u/s at 33 weeks, they showed their goods. I wouldn't have believed her if she HAD told me girl anyway.

I had an appointment with my dr immediately after the u/s with the tech (that's when he said we were halfway home). He asked me if we were able to find out the gender and I told him the baby would not cooperate, so he told me to make sure my next appointment was with him, and he would do a quickie u/s for me! I am really starting to like this dr!! So we will try again in 4 weeks. Oct. 30.